STOP!

I don't expect much. Just stop attacking or doubting the place and its teachings. You are one of the those people that contribute to the doubt cast on the place. One of those people that are only good at doubting and suspecting the quality of the teachings and not take the effort to really understand the difficulties faced by the place. I don't know why I am so offended but I absolutely hate it when you question the integrity of the place's teaching and look at me, expecting me to support you. NOPE...I can't do it. You are on your own. I don't care if you think I am against you. Go ahead.

I miss the school. We worked hard but we supported each other. We found solace and entertainment in each other. Words were not needed but we knew how each was suffering. Now I am by myself. No one on the same frequency to confide in.

Stuck in the middle. Confiding in the newspapers. Trying to swallow everything, complain less, whine less, endure more. I tell him but he can only listen and try to comfort but it is not the same. He is not going through it. He says it is the best time i went to the other meadow but is it? I rather suffer with the other cows on a not-so-green pasture then suffer alone on a supposedly very green pasture.

Management... my current module. Worried for the last one. The lecturer was good at talking but when I left the classroom, didn't have any knowledge taken along. Hope I can pass the exam. Was so tempted to do the only 2 questions I knew, hand in and prepare for the supplementary paper. Haha..

This module has led me to consider lots of qualities that top management or leaders should have. Maybe i should say it has also led me to consider the obvious lack of qualities in some personnel I know. Is it because the organization or the company is too big? Or is it just the breakdown in the system or planning? Mmmmmm.... I wonder...

The lecturer asked today, "Do you think you will be a good leader next time?" I hope to be. I hope to avoid the mistakes of the people around me and adopt the excellent qualities of that one man that is very respected by numerous people even though he has joined another organization.

-Humble, Kind, Attentive to your problems, Nice even though you are very very junior compared to him. He is someone that people respect as a person and not because of his position.

Don't have to meet too many of these type of people. 1 is enough to provide the inspiration.

I continue to seek inspiration and find the thing I want to do. Currently addicted to the VCD of the SHE concert in Hongkong.. Still very inspired to find something to do that is related to behind the scenes production of concerts, performances, dances etc... But still unsure where to start from... Volunteer work?

Shall hunt.. Gather information.. Help me k?