The day before..

Tomorrow is the big day. The day that we have been preparing for since last year. All the hard work, meetings with the coordinator, planning of tables, inviting people etc. Many many things to be done.

As i sit at my computer to type this entry, i feel more of disappointment and disgust at the people around me. People that i have to refer to as relatives. Disappointment and disgust that a person can go entertain his siblings on the day before his daughter's wedding. Although it has been told to the faces that siblings take priority over the wife and kid, but i guess actions add salt to wounds. I could also say it is like stabbing someone. It is extremely exasperating when people take things too personally and are unable to separate issues that do not belong together.

The knife goes even deeper when a dad can compare his kid to his nieces and nephews and prefers them because they don't talk back. I guess that is a very valid basis for comparison. I must say the kid must be experiencing great warmth in her heart. The kid was once questioned,"Is that how you speak to your parents?", but held her tongue from rebutting,"In what way and area do you consider that you have fulfilled your duty as a parent?" In the "i take but don't give way"? Or the "Although i earn the most in the family and am head of the family, but i don't want to pay for household allowances way"?

Relatives can be real bitches. Bitches that use underhand methods to ensure people's happiness are ruined or sabotaged. However, what these bitches do not realize is their actions serve to only magnify their pettiness and childish attempts. Bitches that seek and live to only comment on others but have absolutely no f***king idea what is going on before they open their big and smelly orifice. Time will tell if their plentiful comments apply to themselves too. The best part, when people with weak opinions listen to them and is totally incapable of forming their own opinions, decisions, judgement and follows blindly without considering consequences or feelings. Bitches that seek to spread vicious and false comments about others in a bid to make everyone's life harder and increase the number of people that curse them daily.

"Blood is thicker than water"
Is it? I think in certain families, it is. It exists in some families, definitely not all. It is truly heartwarming to see close-knitted families.

After getting all the above off of my chest, i shall look forward to tomorrow. It will be a step to a new beginning in my life and a form of escape from unhappiness. It might break your heart to read this but i encourage you to get out of the stuffy house too. Relive and rediscover your youth that was taken away by marriage.

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I guarantee you the next post will be a happy one. I shall try to post the happenings and photos. But in the meantime wait patiently for my return on the 15th. Tata..

Tomorrow, I shall be Mrs Huang legally and traditionally...

Disgust!

A man that does not keep his word does not deserve to be treated or respected as a man.

Reflections

It is less than a week to the end of the year. It is also less than a week to the biggest day of my life so far.

Preparations are almost ready. Left a few outstanding things such as music, tables and packing the luggage for the holiday. Seems like a mad rush for everything. Hope when we look back, we do not regret and see something that we could have done better.

Am I in the best shape to get married? Don't really think so, think i put on weight since last november. Horror! Shouldn't i be losing weight to look good? haha... What to do. It's way too late for that.

This past year has been a really eventful one. New unit at the beginning of the year. New responsiblities that had to be taken over in April which allowed me to see the beauty of people that were willing and took initiative to help me in my difficult times. New personnel taking over in the later months of the year has also exposed me to the different ideas and concepts.

When i come back from my holiday and report to work on 18th Jan, I will be preparing to go to another unit again. My adventure at a new unit will begin on 22nd Jan. Again, I am moving. It can be seen as a good thing and a bad thing. Good thing because tensions are building due to differences in ideas and it is better that i go over to the new place while the person is still there so i can learn everything. It can be a bad thing as i am very comfortable in this place now and i have to leave my 'safety net' after all the effort to understand the system in that location.

Do i need to make resolutions for 2008? Nah, don't think so. They probably come together with all the new challenges that await me.

Busy, a tinge of disappointment, long leave, worry & wedding...

In that order, things are happening. My busy schedule is coming to an end after this week. Exams on tues, thurs and sat. I still have to rush down to work after my exams on sat. The only thing that is driving me is the start of my leave on 17th. It's good coz i will be on leave from 17th Dec all the way to next year 17 Jan. So that's an entire month of rest.

Think i deserved it after suffering through the year.

Disappointment? Just a little..

Worry, wedding- i only have 2 weeks to settle things. Do we have enough time? Will we forget anything? Will we look back, regret and wish we did it better or differently?