Almost

Almost lost my cool yesterday and today... Think it is the combination of fatigue, lack of rest or a holiday that i can look forward to and knowing that after tues, i still have loads to do...

If i told you yesterday's situation that nearly resulted in the meltdown, you probably shake your head and laugh loudly at me.. The person that was supposed to give me information started walking in the direction that was leading me further and further away from where my car was parked. I was just tired and really very hungry. All i wanted was the information so that i could make the needed phone call and go meet Mr H for dinner. That's all.. And i really just felt very frustrated and tired from trying to rush people into submitting photos at the last minute or risk them not being able to enter and clear security on tuesday.

Today was a little more trying. Continued calling and chasing people to pass me photos. I think that last minute photos that i submitted resulted in causing another person to stay late at work. I still had to deal someone that is obsessed with the welfare awarded to other people and keeps harping on it..Non-stop harping! What's the matter with him? I really don't understand..

At times when i am in my office or standing at the 5th floor, i just 'shut down' and suddenly feel tired and feel like just finding a corner to sit down and stone or sleep.. But when work calls, we just have to suck it up and go through with it...

2 more days to the end of it and the beginning of audit preparations. Argh!!!
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I think after this long shitty day, the thing that really tickled me was that i won the bet with Mr H that Daiso in IMM is not on the 2nd floor.. So he will have to get me the DS lite.. haha! Lucky i won the bet. If i had lost the bet, i would have to buy him the Canon 45oD which is 1.4k! haha... We do have high stakes ah...

I am quite addicted to 'Trauma Centre' even though someone said i was amateur.. Hmph!

Anyway just happy to find out that there is a sistic outlet at IMM so that i can go buy my Eason Chan concert tickets! YEAH!!!! Can't wait for 26th July!

I want...

So frivolous... Online window shopping is bad.. hee..

I want:

- The white dress from Warehouse with flowers: so pretty but nowhere to wear it.. How to make the $190 worthwhile? haha... I saw someone wearing it immediately after i saw it in the shop..

- to find the black Burberry jacket that was featured on the Taiwanese show.. Just to look at it and see if it is really that nice.

- to find that elusive biker jacket.. Found something close in the Hogan jacket but it's like 3k!! Ah.. I have been looking for it since secondary school, with the button across the neck, the metal zipper and the side pockets... haha.. If you find something like that, let me know k! oh.. and i only want it in black..

- a holiday.. hee.. I am greedy. I want to be travelling all the time...

Ottie.. I may consider that thing that you told me to try.. but i don't really know if they will accept me if a little one comes along... So we shall have to see how next year ah...

My 101th post! haha...

It's my 101th post! Haha... But i can't really bring myself to create a happy post. Maybe it is because the blog or the posts are a reflection of my feelings everytime i write an entry.

Many things and issues plagued me and my superior yesterday. It reached the point where we were so tired that we were about to throw our hands in the air and scream, "WE GIVE UP!" "We are not going to do it!" Especially when the people that are reluctant to offer their help keep creating problems and criticising the things that we do.

It's extremely ironic that they often say that our department is "EXTREMELY" important but the support that we receive is also the remainder. Everyone else gets the first cut and choice and we get the leftovers. But when something happens, we get the first blame!!! What the hell? Where's the justice in this? We get the worst materials but have to do the best job?!!! So to all those idiots all there, if you always say that we are very important, PROVE it don't just use that mouth to SAY it.

It's true of organizations similar to mine. Too complicated and those that are capable will keep having shit thrown at them.

Is work really just work?

Work is just work.. I heard my gal friends mention it twice today... I am trying to convince myself that that's how i should look at it too. But i know it is quite difficult for us.. There is an inner workaholic in all of us.. Haha.. Work has had quite an impact on my life this recent month.. I think it has affected my sleeping patterns, my mood and probably my level of patience and tolerance.

I 'shut down' at about 10 in the night and knock out in bed most of the time in 5-10 mins. However, my vampire tendencies will reveal themselves throughout the night...
In the past 1-2 weeks, i sit up in the middle of the night and although i am still asleep, i am aware that i am sitting up. Sometimes i stay and sleep sitting until i force myself to lie down and sleep.. This occurs even over the weekends! So irritating, i wake up tired and frustrated with myself...So i have developed a weird sleeping pattern and HS and Ottie say i am probably too stressed. Mr H even says i have the potential to sleep walk...

All i want is a goodnight's sleep..

Went to watch Sex and the City today... Hope we will end up like them, simply being there for each other, celebrating important moments, going through hard times together and simply looking back at all these wonderful memories when we celebrate our 50th birthday together...

Sick and miserable

It's back again.. Almost every weekend i will have a dripping nose and end up feling miserable. But the most irritating part of it all is that the dripping nose+raw throat+heavy head/headache will reach its peak during the weekends, especially saturday nights and magically disappear when i decide to see a doctor or when i reach monday and have to get back to work...

So sickening.. It's like a leech, stuck to me and always acting up.. Probably get it thrice a month or in all 4 weekends during the really really bad months.

Driving and sweet letters

There is no link between the two, just 2 things that are happening currently..

Finally driving more regularly after getting my license like 5 years ago. Still paranoid about losing my way even though i have GPS to help me. I must admit i actually feel more confident about the route when not using GPS. I get more frustrated when using it as i am always end up being misled by the instructions.

Road conditions and drivers are a litle shocking to me. I see huge trucks and lorries on the extreme right lane and speeding. The sticker on the back of their vehicle puts 60 but sometimes when i am travelling at the speed of 80-85km/h, i see these errant drivers or vehicles overtaking... I think the TP should concentrate more on catching these errant drivers that are travelling way beyond the road's or even their own vehicles' speed limit..

The stretch of road in front of Taka is like a huge road traffic accident waiting to happen. Lots of jaywalkers risking their lives to cross the road filled with fast moving vehicles rather than walk the extra steps to the nearest traffic light to cross safely. It's quite insane. If a vehicle were to knock into them, it's the fault of the driver. But! These pedestrians should also be held responsible for it too.. I think there shoule be barriers erected all along this busy road now as a precaution rather than as a knee jerk reaction (as with all things) in the future after something serious occurs..
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Letters have a strange way of warming hearts. Staying up late while i am fast asleep. Fast asleep when i am awake and going off to work. Leaving letters in my bag and uniform pockets. Telling white lies about accidentally dropping the notes in my bag so as to make me check my bag for the letters.. Simply written on paper taken from Holiday Inn but extremely heartwarming... Happy... :P