Temptations....

Temptations are coming at me again.. Haiz...

Have you wondered why you are attracted to the beautiful advertisements in the magazines that lure you to covet the latest stuff? And that you are attracted to it even though you know that when you don't get it, you will be filled with disappointment and even compare yourself with those that do? The human brain is weird ah... I guess my brain is weird... I shall work to getting the stuff on my wishlist... haha.. one by one.. Shall find excuses to reward myself.. heh heh...

Anyway sometimes it feels good to just escape the place that you dread... you fill like there's fresh air and you are not trapped in the small space... I learnt a lesson in emotion management today. No matter what, i shall try to maintain an emotionless face and try my very best to be diplomatic. Help me k? Especially those who know how difficult it is for me to keep my emotions in check.. Hahaha....

Tired of surprises

I am tired... Tired of handling surprises that spring onto me at the last minute and expect me to solve them. Why can't you do it? Since it was originally your surprises? I like surprise, but not this type of surprises.

Am i a good listener? Do i convince you when i talk? Or do you just feel incessant grating on your ears when i talk? Do i seem like a stupid person when i talk? That i say things without processing them through my brain first? I hope i am able to convince you to change for the better, especially when people think i am capable of it.. The burden of other people's expectations...

To psycho magnet: what is making you think of throwing in the towel? What towel do you want to throw in? Anyway as the date draws closer, i hope you are prepared and ready for the hardwork and loads of fun that comes along with it. JIA YOU K!!!!!

The four of us shall go take crazy neoprints and spend lots of time decorating it together k? Then we can also update each other on our lives... *HUGZ*

It's getting out of control

2 chipmunks are very intent on hiding their nuts... Too intent. Hiding their nuts all over the place. They are afraid to let the other chipmunk know how many nuts they have already gathered. Often bluffing about the number, i don't know why. There is so much suspicion in the air..Tension.. But hopefully when someday something happens and they are required to pool their resources but are unable to find their nuts, I sincerely pray they will be spared the "I told you so!".....
Hopefully they will realise the folly of their actions before it is too late and it reaches a point where there is no return.

Hoping... really hoping they stop all these nonsense.

Running

You are running away... No one attempts to catch you, they just talk about you behind your back and try to survive. When your shit hits the fan, you are safely hiding somewhere while the rest hit by it clear up the mess and try to freshen up the room.

I hope you feel happy about it. Maybe you feel guilty but guess what? I don't think so..

You are so elusive, i think i should buy the lottery when i finally get the chance to have a proper conversation with you especially when you keep saying we should talk soon..

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It's been a long time since my last entry. Still trying to keep up with things, the learning doesn't stop. Someone asked me the other day, " your training still going on ah?" Yup, it is, it is like a degree programme.. Lots of modules and some of the modules are hidden, you have to make mistakes before they surface and teach you the right things...

I know i sometimes contradict myself, i told you we will strive together to be Pinky and the Brain, but the very next day, i "su-ku" to you. Haha... maybe retail therapy really works. I should do it more often, after all i am always getting stuff for other people but i seldom reward myself.... Haha...Weird...

Anyway my exams are comin... *Fainting*... Hopefully i can pass or just scrape through... The competitor and perfectionist in me is warning me that i will be greatly disappointed if i fall short of my own expectations even though i won't admit to anyone, not even myself.

*Fingers crossed*

why?.... Very puzzled..

I am puzzled by human behaviour.. How can people so be obnoxious, selfish and noisy? How are they able to make loads of noise and yet not feel guilty about breaking other people's concentration? Selfish enough to make noise when people are presenting... Haiz.. I think human behaviour analysis is really tough....

How can people be so blind to things that are so obvious? Is it the genetic composition that makes a certain gender less sensitive to obvious signs or hints? Maybe i will slowly learn to accept this and not allow myself to be disappointed by it...

Don't ask me something which you already know the answer to... The least you can do is learn to read the signs... Isn't that one of your talents?

I will survive.. I have survived 7 days... Sometimes i feel suffocated and laden by the responsibilities that are slowly coming to rest on my shoulders. Sometimes i wonder, "Why me?" Other times i think," I made the choice, i live with the consequences." When i feel beaten, i wonder if i will ever be able to find something that i have confidence in doing, or will i be a lost soul and a good for nothing forever.

I am tired... Very..
Haven't had time to really sit down and listen to my own thoughts...

Please give me strength and endurance...

I lost my voice...

I lost my voice... my throat feels raw. BUT it was all worth it!!! Haha... screaming and singing at the EASON CHAN concert... Very worth it!! hee.. Mr huang bought tickets that allowed us to sit just 3 rows from the stage. Shiok man!!! When i first walked into the hall, i was a bit skeptical... All the chairs were just placed there.. It didn't seem like it was going to be a good concert, i was also worried that i screamed, i would be viewed as alien.... But i was SO wrong..Compared to some of the other people there, i was considered subdued. Haha...

The concert was just FANTASTIC!!!! GREAT!!! Damn Good!!! hee... Saw his wife and daughter too... Cute!!... There were some songs that i didn't really know but it was still such a good experience...The stage was very simple... Unlike in the advert where they showed him dancing... BUT his energy level is super HIGH!!! He was jumping all over the stage while singing but yet he didn't seem breathless at all.. When he sang the slow songs, you could just feel all the emotions and everyone focusing on him. I want to go to his concert again!!!! Hopefully the next time i can go Hongkong to see him perform... *Fingers crossed*

Only regret is that i didn't bring camera and light sticks..Slightly disappointed. On the back of the ticket, it said that photography and all that were not allowed, so i didn't bring. But people brought and were allowed to bring it in... Haiz.. If only i knew.. Then i can post some pics here...

I want to go again!!!!