Round and round they go

The thoughts are like a continuous merry go round.. There is no stop button and no power switch to switch it off. I keep asking myself the same questions, keep considering the same factors. Too many "What ifs" cloud my brain. The issue of suitability, experience, economy etc contribute to the merry go round everyday..

I am driving myself nuts and probably the people around me too..

My vampire tendencies are back and even worse than before. Sitting up more often during the night and scaring the hell out of Mr H..

I feel inadequate. Questions that I have no answers to. Information that I take extremely long to process and digest. Have I unconsciously slipped into a particular mental state also known as "THE MOOD"? I compare myself now and then. It seems like I was more eager to find out what was going on when I was there in 2007. The difference between then and now is so vast. I have spent a year here but yet I still say "Erh, I don't really know" almost everytime I am asked something. Why do I seem to have lost the drive? I seem to be constantly blaming the environment and the people within.

Is the true problem within myself?