I should be able to....

I should be able to happy with where I am now.

I should be able to spend as I like on things that I like, seeing that my job provides for almost anything.

I don't even have to buy clothes for work. I should be able to pamper myself and not feel the pinch.

So why is it that I feel like I am saving money all the time and have nothing left for myself?


You ask me why my face is so black.

You have no idea what is going through my head.

You don't know what it feels like when I tell you an idea and you just "mmm" and walk off.

You probably will never know. Maybe if by some freak chance, you read this then you might have an idea.

Is it like what she said?

"That you don't really bother because I seem secure with myself?"